Monday, June 9, 2008

Hello? Remember me???

Yes, I'm back. It's been way too long and I know that I've been avoiding blogging because I've been avoiding issues at hand. That and I've been swamped with work! *This is actually something that isn't bothering me...more about that in a second.*

Because it's late, and I don't think I'm ready to jump into a 'deep thoughts' post, I'll give some tidbits to chew on:

  • The funk of the past few months is lifting. Crazy thought, but I really think it's due to someone not being in my life anymore. I feel bad saying that, but I think there was definitely some correlation between my funk and him as it all started happening shortly after we met and started working together. Honestly, I think I was trying to be something I wasn't and something he wanted all at the same time. Don't ask me why I was trying to be something he wanted. I look back now and shake my head in shame. He's a great guy...but not for me.

  • Holy crap--my birthday is next week. I'm not as excited about this as I usually am. I don't think it has to do with the 'getting older' factor, but more with the "I'm in a new place and don't know what I want to do for my birthday" thing. I have a list of people who want to get together and celebrate with me (which is awesome!) but trying to find the right thing that suits everyone as we're all spread out (at least an hour between me and the farthest people). Bowling? Dinner and drinks? Piano bar for sing along time? Giants game? Ohhh...decisions, decisions!

  • I'm ready to move again. Yes, I've only been here 6 weeks and the plan has been for me to move in August since I've been here, but I'm ready to do it now. I'm ready to really get settled in, to have my space, and to be closer to the city. I'm looking at places over the next week to see what works best for me and the girl moving out this way. Wish me luck!

  • The new job is so amazing! In so many ways, it's similar to the previous gig (working from home, mostly on my own, planning events, lots of email, etc.) but at the same time...it's so much different. My opinions and ideas are actually valued. I've been given control of events (she decides when we do it.) and have been rocking out with getting sponsorships for the events we're planning right now. My title changed just 1.5 weeks after I started and there's talk of some major things within the next few months. It's funny, I don't know 'tech/web' stuff (and I've made that known to my boss), but because I love to strategize and plan, I'm being brought in on some major conversations. I feel more and more valued as a person and am being appreciated for my input, which is a complete 180 from the other job.

  • I got out today for a light jog (my left knee has been killing me, so I'm not pushing it). It was a beautiful day! I'd forgotten what it was like to be outside, with the sun and fresh air. It was great. I'm making plans to work out more and even bought 2 new bikinis the other day. I've dropped 3-4 dress sizes over the past 10 months to a year. Amazing! I feel so good about myself now and am excited to tone up.


All in all, life is great. So much better than where I was when I got here. Even though things didn't turn out the way I thought they were going to, I think this has been better than I could've imagined.

Looking forward to posting more frequently. ;)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

This is so great to read. I'm glad that things (and you!) are getting lighter. You really do sound like you're in a much better space. Good luck finding a new place.