Is life passing me by or am I passing by life?

I was out last night with some friends (more about this in a bit...) and one of my guy friends met up with us later in the evening. As we started talking, he said, "I haven't seen you in so long." We finally figured out our last encounter had been in November. Really? Since November? Ouch! This is a guy who is a good friend and yet, we've managed to lose touch with each other.

Confession, I heard quite a few times last night, "I haven't seen you in so long!" I know that this is my 'busy' season with work, but I hate using that as an excuse. My boss is quite the supporter of getting out to do things with friends and stop working overtime. As a workaholic, I need people to tell me when to take a break and stop working and am becoming more aware of it personally.

I haven't been to church in months and the group I was with last night were all in that circle. *and yes, we were at a bar and not having to repent about it this morning!* Everyone was asking what time I was going today and I avoided the question...well, it depends on what I feel like when I get up, I don't want to commit to a time, etc. For some reason, church hasn't been enjoyable for me lately and I can't figure out if it's the church I attend in general or if I'm avoiding God about things. Probably a little of both. Maybe I'll bite the bullet and go tonight. Then again, I can always watch it online... **Side note, check out lifechurch.tv. It's my old church back home and is doing amazing things online. They have LIVE services Saturday night/Sunday morning via the web. Yes, LIVE. Not taped...the real deal. The music is like a rock concert (which I enjoy) and the speaking is real. Good stuff! Check out Porn Sunday which brings the Porn Pastor and a Porn Producer together for a great conversation. Very eye opening, heartbreaking and promising! Great story at the end about Ron Jeremy.**

I've been out two nights in a row and have had a great time. It's been quite a while since I've been out with friends, because I've always made excuses of 'I have work to do' and have come to allow work to rule my life. It's hard to not allow this, because I love what I'm doing. Really...I am. There are times when I am not enjoying it, but the times I love override that. I work hard and need to make sure I'm taking time to play hard too.

So is life passing me by or am I passing life by? If I was standing still and sitting back, being stagnant, I think I'd say life was passing me by. But, by being focused on work and being busy (not that I aim to do that, but it happens!), I think I'm passing life by. Time is flying by. Where did 2007 go? It's already halfway into January. Crazy!

I want to make it a point to enjoy life. To stop...take a break from working to enjoy what's going on around me. To take time to invest in my friends, which is tough right now since I know I'm moving. To really live life to it's fullest. If I'm not doing that, then what am I doing?