More and more lately I'm asking the question, "what's wrong with me?" I've signed up for Match.com and have had a little interest, but nothing worth pursuing. I mean, I want the message to at least have semi-correct grammar.
"The last guy" pinged me the other night, after I unfollowed him and then sent a tweet that was about him. I'm sure he saw it, felt bad and pinged me. There's no way that after him living 5 blocks away from me and not seeing each other for 6 weeks that it was coincedence. He then says, over AIM, 'we should get together for coffee sometime.' Funny enough, that was the same thing he said to me 6 weeks ago after he moved up here. I answered the same way I did back then, "Sure, just let me know when you're ready." Stop toying with me...
Then there's another guy who I've had contact with via Twitter/Facebook over the past few months. We have some crazy connection to Oklahoma, but I can't remember what. I honestly don't remember how we first made contact as it's been a while. Anyways, we made plans to get a group together a while back and we were both traveling quite a bit, so it never happened. I invited him to a group thing this last week, very low key...no pressure, and he missed out as it was early and he had gone out the night before. In his apology message to me, "what are you're plans this weekend? I owe you brunch." I responded that my weekend was open and I always had time for brunch. Nada...no response.
Then there are the multiple married/engaged guys hitting on me. Not just flirting, but totally coming on to me and even asking if I want to make out. Stop...please. That does not make me feel better about myself. You'd think I'd be flattered, but in reality, it makes me feel like I'm not good enough for someone to commit to, but could totally be the 'other woman'. I don't play that game.
I'm getting very tired of guys toying with me. I'm ready for someone who truly cares about me, the real me, who is ready to get to know me and all my craziness, and who can be open to me caring about them. But I'm starting to wonder if that's even possible.
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Oh darling! So sorry you are going through this b.s. I know how you feel, and I can tell you that it does get better. Remember, all it takes is for ONE person to make it all worth it. That's all you need: 1. That's a small number, and it's coming your way for sure. I struggled for years, been through drug addicts, a-holes, felons, cheaters, all of it. And finally met one man who made it all seem worth it. (In the meantime, it's a giant pain in the a**, I know). I'm here to listen anytime you want!
Let me please say that you are amazing. You're beautiful, outgoing, hilarious and super smart. I know you're ready for Mr. Perfect to sweep you off your feet (aren't we all?!) but maybe this is the Universe's way of saying "hold on. Enjoy it a little longer."
He's out there. I promise. Until then...just come back to LA and we'll go hit on guys just as obnoxiously as they hit on us.
Maria--I know...one person. And I thought that one person was the one from a few months ago. My head and my heart go back and forth and I'll feel better once they settle on the same answer.
Jenn--I've been holding for so long I feel like giving up. Yet, isn't that when they say he'll find me. Stupid cliche!
there is no "perfect guy: out there....
every single girl has met all kinds of guys... and we should know better...
there are nice guys out there....but not perfect...
don't give up....but don't expect too much...
try to have fun by your self ....and with friends and family....
and when you meet the nice honest guy have fun with him....
probably if you expect the least you'll be dissapointed less..
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